why!?..

its really a few mths since i posted anything...thinx this place will be slowly forgotten. well...i dun have much fans u see..

anyway feeling abit confuse and lost recently...thinx the low morale season have come back to haunt me once again. why it always have to be dealing wif relationship somehow or rather?.
why i always need to thinx so much....so many qns in my mind till its gonna blow! wat so diffi for me to pick up a phone and sae "hi"...wat so diffi to tell someone tat i interested in her!?... why muz i need to use my fingers to do all the "toking" instead of my own facking mouth... hey hey...the whole world noes tat the shang is the most talkative guy anywhere..the whole world can keep quiet except me...but why i simply cant do a simple task like calling someone...

damn....jia ming ge sae im like a coward...i admit i am one..tot i can change over after the prev incident but nothing has change...im still the same old self... oh come on lah... need to kick this damn facking prob of me!! i have toking about changing umpteen but still the same old thing...i really hopeless man...

我讨厌自己的懦弱。。
我讨厌自己的个性。。
我讨厌自己的一切。。

一而再再而三地让自己失望。。
这一切只能怪自己优柔寡断。。
空有满腔的思念却没有行动。。
想念人家却又不肯主动表达。。

难道真的要我失去一切， 我才能醒悟吗？

im becoming a paranoid soon if this carry on....how i hope i could one day wakeup and transform into a totally differ person from who i am now~

chances dun stay on the same place waiting for u...is u who can grab the chance and make a difference~
u never try u never noe wats the outcome...