Mount Biang in us...

rem my CO said this to my fellow company mates and me in brunei...he said..Mt. Biang (should be familiar to all the idiots who went thru the gruelsome training in brunei..in case u dunno its a damn mountain tat u will climb over for exercise LANCER in brunei) is indeed high and tough to cross...treat it as a challenge for each individual. In our life, there are alot more mt biang tat u need to clear becos no one have a smooth and ez ride throughout the life.

i believe everyone have went thru a phase which u struggle...put ur very best to overcome certain things in ur life.. like for jj..he put his heart and soul...scarifice his freedom, work, frens to train hard for the nation so tat he could put on his best performance for every karate competition he went.
jaz too...despite all the complains she have...she still put in her best effort to raise the young kids..to impart them wif knowledge and morals.
not forgetting my grp of good buddies in army..we overcome so much training and hardship together in our 2yrs+ of army life...though i always "buddy is a name u call in camp" but ur noe i dun mean tat...hehe.."buddy is not juz a name tat u can call onli in camp" ^_-

well...everyone faces challenge and barrier...so no pt avoiding it...muz well get over it...ya?..
now i got a barrier between me and my crush.. a invincible wall/mountain/lake tat hinder my progress from gettting to closer to her.. be it swim/climb/crawl i will overcome this!!!.. i noe god wont be by my side..cos im not a faithful follower...so i onli can depend on myself liao...or maybe need some external helping hand...hahaa...

eh..thinx my england also not very powder piak so frenz might have prob understanding it...
but neber mind...not impt... juz want to tell all my frenz... no matter how high is the "mountain" infront of u..juz overcome it...like wat my form teacher used to sae... "when there is a will, theres a way" ^_^

说不出口的心里话。。

我在这四天里出席了两个白事。。 心情或多或少都有点不开心。。也体会到生离死别的感觉。。跟是让我知道人生难于捉摸不定的明天。。所以我们可以的话一定要自己过得没有遗憾， 跟不能忘记开开心心地过着日子。。而且不能浪费或糟蹋自己的人生。

自古英雄难过美人关。。这句话一点都不假。。 为什么我往往都是为了一个“情“字 困扰。。可是我怎么这么不要脸地说我自己是英雄。。 大家都会取笑我的。。好啦！！ 别笑了！！从我认识你的那一天。。我就不停地抓紧机会和你在网上聊天。。 我觉得你最多只把我当成一个和你在网上聊天的网友。。不然就是一个好朋友的弟弟罢了。。可是这只是我个人的想法。。到底对不对只有你和老天知。。 其实我好像告诉你我对你有意思。。可是却找不到机会和你说。。不可能真的要我在网上告诉你吧？。。 我知道这是下下之策。。我约你是， 你总是没空。。就只有第一次约你时， 你很好爽地答应我。。可是当然不只只有我和你在场。可是我还是很开心能和你见面。。可惜好运不会永远守候着我。。 接下来要和你约会简直难如登天。。

难道就如我好友所说的你对我一点意思也没有。。 还是说你对我多少还有点害羞？。。唉~ 我又有一大堆的“为什么“。。。 难道我就不能在一觉醒来的时候突然果断一点吗难道你真的不知我对你有好感？ 因为我们常常斗嘴。。但这是我的专长啊。。我只要求你能给我机会罢了。。可是当然我也不知道会不会给你带来幸福。。还是换来跟多的伤害。。但是我敢肯定的是如果我对不起你，我一定会被身边的伙伴们怒骂和挨打。。 哈哈呵呵。。我身边的朋友， 一个一个地有了伴侣， 就连有些还打算共结良缘。。什么时候才能到我？。。爱神就不能帮我一把吗？。。 您的箭到底射去哪了？。。

其实我多么希望你能知道我的心意。。可是又不想你看到这一篇文章， 不然我怕你会远离我。。这是我最不想看到的。。怎么我这么地矛盾？。。 性格不是一两天说改就改的。 如果你不喜欢我些什么，我能试着去改。。可是别忘了我也不能完完全全地改变自己原有的风格 ：）不然很多好友可是会很伤心地。。 哈哈。。 我真不要脸。。。
知己我是有了。。只差红颜。。。 到底几时才能找到。。好啦。。别在告诉我很快就能找到。。。我听腻了。。但也要怪自己不够主动。。

哎呀。。。我怎么写了这么一段文章。。希望茉莉花姐别纠正我的错字。。哈哈我好久没写文章了。。这比我 O'Levels 的作文写的还好。。 放心吧大家。。我没事。。只是想把心中的感慨和想法写出来。。我还是比较适合现在嘻嘻哈哈， “什么都不管我事“， 整天胡说八道逗人欢笑的我吧。。 不错吧。。我的华文还是宝刀未老 ^_^ 。。 茉莉花老师给我一个"A" 好吗？:P

devastating news

Wat a way to start my month of may!!.... everything look so peaceful and normal for me from the start of this mth. my work is normal, normal life, normal lifestyle...juz slightly more money than usual thanx to the progress package.. prev wk also enjoy alittle moment wif my fren together wif some of her frenz... went bowling together have some lunch and meeting up my "current dream gal"....of cos wif some help from my sis... but din tok much but at least i got to see her and have a few words wif her.. though progress is not of wat i expected but doesnt matter cos im a person who get satisfied very ezly..

wat exactly went wrong is todae~ 5th may 06~ suppose to be a happie day....well...its my dad's bday mah!
but receive 2 bad news todae.... 1stly is one of my buddie kass-ly's grandpa juz passed away...went to the wake and got to noe tat his grandpa died becos of ailing body..but few mths back when i happened to went to his house.....his grandpa still looks good....but juz passed away 2 days back~ yup felt abit sad for my buddie but his grandpa is pass away at the age of 92. but the most shocking/devastated news tat came from my hp at the middle of the night.

MY EX PC PASSED AWAY IN AN BIKE ACCIDENT~!!!... couldnt be juz a spam or prank made by my army frenz.....sms came flooding in my hp saying about the same thing......HOW COULD IT BE NOT TRUE!!! how hope someone could tell me this is a joke though i will be damn pissed at the bastard who crack such a joke...but dun seems tat there will be one for me to tick him off~ his still in his 20s' erm....couldnt rem exactly should be 28+- ..... but wif this age he doesnt deserve to leave us tat early....he still got a bright future ahead of hi after completing his SOF not long ago!!! all the efforts, hardship, determination he went thru to reach tat status all gone crashing together wif his mishaps~ he haven even reach half of my fren's grandpa's age!!!

sigh...finally my peers and i have reach tat age where we will finally witness or experience such things in life. its really painful to see ur love ones or any of ur close frenz leaving u like tat.....so i hereby hope to tell everyone tat life is short do cherish watever u have, live life to the fullest....appreciate wat u have.. 珍惜人生的每一刻..人生短短几十年..不要白白的让他像流水一样的流去..

for those who drive or ride...do be mindful of wat u are doing....do not put ur life at risk nor put other ppl life at risk... im not trying to help traffic police to advertise but as a fren, as ur pal, as an unknown stranger to u...plz drive/ride wif care and think of others safety too.... "time wont stop for u...but once uleave this world, ur time ends here~".

lastly i came across this chinese poem and would like to share it :
(相逢易，离别苦，他日回首情何处？世事无常，人生如梦，且把眼前刻成图，深藏寸心中。待梦醒，回望远处，一片朦胧！声声私语，浅浅问候，问东风，故人何处？)

tribute to one of my most respected officer!! LTA Kowi
**salute**